Promise to self.

I have written you a hundred messages that I will never send. I am sorry for not speaking/texting you for a few days. I've been experiencing technical difficulties.

And I may be going away for a while soon. But I will tell you before that happens and I-will-return sooner or later. or not.I promise I'll tell you.

Yesterday upon today.

It was late in the evening. At the station. A bench.

So I sat there at the bench and got lost in the faces I had never know or meet because like them. my life is too busy for strangers.

I missed the train today. And you.

Car Trip.

Do you remember when we used to fight over whose music we had listen to in the car? I was too this and you were too that. And so we compromised and sat in the silence.

I haven't heard that in a while.

Time passes. Rain falls. I miss you.

Drean Within a Dream.

I had a dream about you last night. Then I woke up and phoned you to tell you how I felt. Then I woke up again and realised it was just a dream within a dream.

I should have kept sleeping.

I Remember.

I remember more the time we spent driving nowhere than the fancy dinner.

I remember more the time we spent laughing and drawing than when we stepped on stage.

I remember more the silence in each others arms than the conversations about we felt.

I remember more of what I didn't expect to remember with you.

Distant.

I am sorry for every lie I ever told. For every tear you ever shed. For everytime you needed me and I wasn't there. For everything.

Please. Forgive me.

Clue from stranger.

I leave clues everywhere. But you don't see them. I am hoping one day, someone will find this and show it to you.

And then you will know.

Keheningan.

Aku mendengar sebuah lagu yang mengingatkan aku pada kau hari ini.

Dan aku menangis.

Tidak Kena.

Kadang-kadang aku seperti merasakan semua perkara ini hanya berlaku pada seseorang yang lain. Seseorang seperti kau. Dan aku hanya melihat, memandang.

Sea Scenery.

Sometimes the sky looks like the sea. Sometimes the sea looks like the sky.

Sometimes I am you. And sometimes.

You are me

Forever.

I will always remember you. Always.

Most.

One of the most important thing that I can give you, is something to say.

Hari Ini

Where were you yesterday? I missed you.

Tribute to.

Friendship like all other relationships have sunny side and rainy side. The rainy side of any relationship is traumatic now and again, it leaves behind some scars which even time cannot heal. And the sad end of friendship cause the heart to burn in hollowness. No matter how big your effort is, how hard you try, it's really hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does.

And the same things goes with me. and for all sad words of tongue and pen the saddest are these. Yes, it is.

I have no longer a reason. The right, the love, the you. Sadness. Smile.

Do you not know?

I must go home. A home. where my heart belongs to.

Apa-Apa Pun.

And now you're with someone else, and I must go home, alone, to think about how long it takes to heal an alien heart.

You were change, you are changing.

I keep thinking on how on earth am I going to hate you. I need to start learning. And it will never stop.

You don't care, and you just don't even give a damn.

The most important thing is you. and for you it is somebody else. Yes, someone else.

I can't accept you, not because of somebody else. Because you were too care about others, rather than asking me "how are you?".

Aku dah tawar hati. Please go, go!

The truth is you are the one that can always live without me.

you just don't understand.

What I have done, is for the sake of you. Remember my words. "there will come a day that you will understand"

I'm not doing this for me. But for you. It's all about you. And it is always been a you.

Those words. Doesn't mean a thing. And I didn't mean anything to any of words that I'm saying.I just need you to believe, things that I've done, sooner or later, it will save you from being hurt in sadness.

What if.

Here I stand alone

With this weight upon my heart

And it will not go away

In my head i keep on looking back

Right back to the start

Wondering what it was that made we change

Many roads to take

Some to joy
Some to heart-ache
Anyone can lose their way
And if I said that we could turn it back
Right back to the start
Would we take the chance and make the change

Do you think how it would have been sometimes
Do you pray that I'd never left your side

Well I tried
But I had to draw the line
And still this question keeps on spinning in my mind

What if I had never let you go
Would you be the friend I used to know
If I'd stayed
If you'd tried
If we could only turn back time
But I guess we'll never know

I said, you can count on me

If you ever find yourself stuck in the middle of the sea

I'll sail the world to find you

If you ever find yourself lost in the dark and you can't see

I'll be the light to guide you

If you toss and you turn and you just can't fall asleep

I'll sing a song beside you

And if you ever forget how much you really mean to me

Everyday I will remind you

You can count on me like one, two, three

I'll be there and I know when I need it

I can count on you like four, three, two

And you'll be there 'cause that's what friends

Are supposed to do

Find out what we're made of

What we are called to help our friends in need

You'll always have my shoulder when you cry

I'll never let go, never say goodbye

The Colour of Life