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From me for you.

A letter.

Everything happen for a reason.

Post kali ini adalah entri aku yang terakhir. Walaupun sebelum ni aku selalu cakap yang aku nak stop dari blogging, tapi tidak berhenti juga dari blogging. Akhirnya aku rasa, setakat ini sahajalah pengakhiran dunia blog. Aku mahu hentikannya sekarang juga.

Aku nak cari kehidupan yang baru. Sibukkan diri dengan perkara yang aku tak pernah lakukan sebelum ini. Walaupun aku tahu aku perlu jalaninya seorang diri. Aku nak lakukan sesuatu yang bermanfaat, sesuatu yang tidak akan mengingatkan aku tentang kesedihan aku seorang sahaja, tapi pada mereka yang di luar sana yang lebih teruk keadaanya dari aku. Aku patut fokus. Mereka semua dah maju dari aku. Maju dari segi iman/ pengetahuan agama-dunia/ pandangan dan diri sendiri.

Cita-cita aku dari dulu nak jadi ahli sukarelawan. Aku nak jadi doktor hanya sebab aku fikir hanya itu sahajalah jalan untuk aku masuk MERCY. Sebab aku fikir hanya doktor sahaja yang ada peluang utnuk masuk benda-benda macam itu. Dan betul, cita-cita aku bukan hendak menjadi seoang doktor. Cuma aku fikir, dengan doktor aku boleh ikut sekali rombongan ke negara-negara yang memerlukan bantuan. Tapi nampaknya, aku hanya sekadar hangat-hangat tahi ayam. Harapan sekadar harapan. Dan aku jugaklah yang menghancurkan harapan kedua ibubapa, sahabat, dan keluarga. I am the destructive of all hope. Tapi semua itu aku pasti ada hikmahnya. Aku tak pernah gagal seteruk ni, pada jangka masa yang sangat lama aku gagal. Akhirnya aku sedar, aku hilang sesuatu, keberkatan hidup dari pelbagai pihak.

Dan kebenarannya, aku ada masalah mental yang sangat kronik. Ya, sangat kronik. Pada Allah aku berserah, ketenangan dari-Nya yang aku cari.

Dan sekarang, aku sudah letih membiarkan diri aku terus gagal. Aku menyesal yang aku pernah berputus asa. Walhal, berputus asa itu adalah amalan syaitan yang di rejam. Semoga aku dapat kembali, gagahkan diri menghadapi dunia. Wassalamualaikumwarohmatullahhiwabarokatuh.

End Of Blog.

Maybe you are right. I should stop being so sad. Right here, right now.

but I can't.

Quotes from you.

you : ♥ "The ones that you love the most are usually the ones that hurt you the most." ♥

Ironi.

I once said that the friend that fights the most is the one most in happiness.It shows they care enough to notice the other one screwed up and care enough to mention it to the person so they can fix it. When you stop fighting it means you stopped caring.

No w, I've realized we are no longer fight each other.

Here I stand at the last corner.

Tomorrow I may not here. and today is the ending. The day after tomorrow is the last day I'm standing here.

I had enough. I said enough is enough. No one should ever feel the way that I am feeling right now.

I don't say goodbye, and I don't want to say hello too.

I might have forgotten how to smile

Keburukan aku itu #3

...kau tak pernah nak faham aku, aku dah tak nak cerita sebab kau tak akan dengar, kau tetap akan salah kan aku.

Needed.

I don't know how on earth am I going to give you this. Maybe we could see each other sometime. Or maybe not. Or maybe I just send it to you, but it will needs your address to make it arrive. Or maybe just forget about giving and sending. Hurm.

I miss you

Sorrow.

There is a time when you love someone a lot, you feel it is hard to be with the person. The truth is, it's getting tougher every day to be without.

Keburukan aku itu #2

...... you: I never cry because of someone else except you..

Now I know, I have nothing-to-do with you anymore. Isn't it?

Sometimes

Kadang-kadang aku terasa. Aku terasa bila aku ada minta sesuatu dari seseorang. Seseorang seperti kau. Ya, kalau aku ada minta kirim sesuatu lambat sangat dapat. Dekat 3 ke 4 kali aku minta benda tu tapi tak pernah dapat lagi. Tapi kalau orang lain, kau terus tunaikan. Sampai aku pun dah naik malas berkehendakkan benda itu. Kadang-kadang aku fikir orang lain lagi penting lah kan hatinya perlu di jaga dan aku tidak.

Itu dulu, sekarang mungkin dah tak ada apa-apa untuk aku terasakan. Cuma aku harap sesuatu yang aku minta itu adalah kenangan dari kau. Tapi mungkin tak akan dapat pun. Apa nak dikesahkan kalau tiada apa-apa sudah.

end.

Not a second of my time with you was wasted. Now I know what not to do.

Glass Breaks.

This is the song I only sing when you're sleeping. These are the words I say when you can't hear me. This is the way I look when you can't see me. And you will never know

Aku perasan. Gambar kita dah semakin berkurang. Dan lepas ni mungkin tiada.

Says.

When you can't forgive someone else, it is because you can't forgive yourself. When you hurt someone's feeling, you hurt your's. When you hate someone you love, it is because you hate yourself too. It's like a reflection to yourself.

Things I didn't realize.

When, I learn to hate you, I learn to love you even more.

When, the hate growing stronger in my heart, the more love in my heart for you.

When, I start hating you, I start to hate my self too, even more.

It's not me.

Now, I do understand that I am not the one that do best in you. I have no doubt. It was someone else that really understand you, that flatter you up. It is not me. Forgive me for being dumb, in silence to you. Not because I want to, but it's because my heart bounded to understand you. And please, do forgive me.

Though, I still have the love, the longing, the care for you. I must leave. Though, my conscience needs you. I must give you up.

And there is only one person who be able to understands me, that really know me. It was you.

I'm walking away.

Since you are happy.

I'm going away to heal an alien heart.