Pens Off.

Stop writing.

Nobody, No one will read this again. No.


Thank you, for being so kind following every of my notes, and stories.

I wish that you will have another story to read. Some other people stories.

My story, ends here.

thank you.

Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

i hate to turn up out of the blue uninvited but i couldn't stay away, couldn't fight it and i had hoped you'd see my face and that you'd be reminded that for me isn't over.

who would have known how bittersweet this would taste and..

i wish nothing but the best for you too. don't forget me, i beg.

Berfikir tentang untuk menjadi sukarelawan.

Pagi tadi, tiba-tiba tertengok MHI sebab topik perbualan tadi pasal World Food Day, and pasal rusuhan di Indonesia nak ganyang Malaysia. Tapi yang lebih menangkap perhatian aku adalah pasal Hari Tanpa Lapar. Dan aku baru tahu yang ada rakya Malaysia yang sangat prihatin, berbesar hati untuk buat program begini.

And you know what, I want to be one of them. Really into this kind of activity since I was little. But then need to think, how to go to masjid jamek Pergi tak ada masalah tapi nak balik payah, sebab sampai pukul 1 pagi.Semua public transport dah tak ada.

Well, nevermind. Pasti ada masa jalan puyalah. :)

There is nothing more fun than being with you, my best friend.

Assalamualaikum,

Lately, or maybe all these years, I've been pushing you so hard, without knowing that you've been suffered a lot, I really forgot to ask about the true you, while I'm busy thinking just about myself. Now, my eyes really open wide, that the truth is, I never ask you truly about yourself, I'm so selfish, though I know I ask of you everyday. But the fact is, I just feeling lonely. And I need you to be there for me and I forgot, instead of wanted you to be there, why not, I/me volunteer myself to be just there for you. Perhaps, those feelings is what you felt out there, and I should felt the same too. I promise I will never leave you again. I know, it's hard to believe, but it takes time. I still love you from the first day we met and then we become friends again.

And I want you to know, in everywhere you go, If i was meant to bump with you at some other place or some other time, I will lost my normality, and I will scream out loud, and smile to you. Hope you do the same too. Because you know what, only you that can makes me reach my abnormality. Thank you. And I'm smiling right now, if you read this. And I know my words are not that good. But what can I say, I can be toooooooo sentimental if it was for my friend.

The attitude, I cannot bear.

Aku baru perasan yang aku rarely mendahulukan entri aku dengan ucapan salam, mungkin sebab aku tahu, bukannya ramai sangat yang follow blog aku mahupun yang sudi baca blog aku, tapi aku rasa aku kena buang attitude sebegitu, sebab bagi aku, apabila berkaitan dengan interaksi antara manusia aku perlu ucapkan salam. Much better. Jadi.....

Assalamualaikum,

Kadangkala, aku selalu terfikir macam mana manusia boleh jadi hati kering, yang mana aku memang tak boleh buat. Though I'm not good. But I can think, which part/things that I do that can makes me feel down/guilty.

Tapi, aku selalu pegang kata-kata mak aku masa aku kecik-kecik dulu,

mak aku selalu pesan " jangan samakan kita dengan orang lain. Orang lain belum tentu fikir sama dengan kita"

Mungkin disebabkan kebelakangan aku agak lupa dengan kata-kata itu, aku fikir orang akan berfikiran sama dengan aku. Sebab itu aku selalu kecewa, tapi salah aku jugak sebenarnya. Walaubagaimanapun, aku tetap akan simpan attitude aku yang macam dulu.

Perhaps.

Maybe not all friendships need to be saved, maybe we're meant to just spend a certain part of our lives with certain people and move on. Though you really trying hard to hold on. Hoping that there will come a day when everything, absolutely everything will be back into it place. Back to basic. Back to where it used to be.

I'm not as nice as I should be, but I'm not as mean as I can be. I just can't. Though, my conscience told me to be mean. As mean as the heart cannot bear. I will not. I can't.

I can’t promise that we won’t have fights and say things we don’t mean, but I can promise that we’ll make up after them. But promise is only a promise. Promise that can be broken. Promise that can be forgotten. But I am the kind, that hold on tight to my words. When I said, I give you my words, then you had my words. Sound promising, but I can't be sure it happen too soon. Takes time.

But then when I think again, I cannot make it, I cannot make it if I'm doing it alone. So I keep thinking now,

Maybe not all friendships need to be saved, maybe we're meant to just spend a certain part of our lives with certain people and move on.

Until, one of them, come and approach me and say that, it is not true. Friendship are made forever. That is the words, the quote that I really wanted to hear from you.

So until then, the same thought will be remain in my head and my heart.

pens off.

Perhaps there is rightness in our wrongness.

Mode Busy On.

Aku sangat busy akhir-akhir ni. Aku tak tahu nak kata busy ataupun tidak, ataupun aku buat-buat busy. Sangat penat. Tapi seronok, sebab kita tahu perkara yang kita buat ni boleh buat kita happy sekejap.

Besok along aku suruh tukar blackberry sebab senang untuk dia bbm aku, untuk bagi aku info untuk projek yang seterusnya. Masih berfikir. Sama je perasaan aku untuk dapat fon baru, tak excited, sebab aku tahu tak ada siapa pun nak contact aku.

The Sad Moment

When you need your friends, but they don't need you.