Thursday, November 18, 2010

A Loner

What would you do if you see someone eating alone at a cafe?Are you going to greet him and ask permission to sit with him or you just go away without feeling anything?

Of course, many will go away without feeling a thing about that person. Maybe I will do the same thing too. But what if you are in that person situation? What do you feel?

Sometimes I do not feel afraid to sit alone with no friends either when eating out for a walk or watching a movie. I really enjoy when I'm alone. Maybe people will say that they are very sorry for my situation. Not that i have no friends, bit i feel sometimes I just need time for myself.To love myself more. Frankly speaking, I really felt my past time, I really did a lot of talking to myself. I feel I must speak to my own self, and that is because of me wondering if it was not me who is always talking to myself, who else would talk to me. It does not mean you are crazy. If you talk to yourself alone. What I think just, I need to make time for myself. I repeat, make time for myself.

I feel sometimes I need to go out and eat alone. Watch movie while eating popcorn and wander around to see people with lot of "ragam" out there alone. Yes, A L O N E. Pathetic? But being pathetic is apathetic way to be right? But I do feel content. In this life I really think that sometimes we should have this kind of feeling, yes, feeling lonely.I feel that sometimes, you, me, and us should feel so, you know feeling lonely, feeling at a distance, feeling no hope. With it it makes you feel a sense of longing, sense of love, sense of being apart and the sense of loss. That will make you appreciate what you have, thanks to what have been given to you. As Life is now a sunshine, life is now a shade, live your life to the fullest, for tomorrow might never comes. Even when you are alone. Just live your life as what it deserved to be.